jaykitsune

jaykitsune @ 2007-09-27T00:48:00

2007-09-27T04:49:46Z

ooooOOOoooo...back from the grave!

jaykitsune @ 2005-10-24T12:03:00

2005-10-24T16:54:08Z

batman the animated series. what up?

jaykitsune @ 2005-07-13T01:08:00

2005-07-13T05:08:46Z

jaykitsune @ 2005-07-07T14:27:00

2005-07-07T18:30:06Z

the fourth was a lot of fun. i found out that i and my cousin john are friends now. plus, my aunt anne loves me! ^-^ more traveling fun this weekend.

jaykitsune @ 2005-07-01T10:46:00

2005-07-01T14:47:21Z

well fuck livejournal. i only use it for the grievous sex!

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2005-06-28T08:21:09Z

oh man

jaykitsune @ 2005-06-08T18:38:00

2005-06-08T22:41:06Z

well, dan + mom had a big fight. my mom was crying and dan said he'd rather blow his brains out then go on vacation with her or something. it's okayish now, but we're definatly getting out of here, hopefully sooner then later. we should get together this weekend if you're free. talk to me later. ♥

jaykitsune @ 2005-06-05T20:43:00

2005-06-06T00:45:28Z

holy crap. sam? we might not have time to fix things. i really think this will be the last summer at 30824 alger. heather took bev, thank goodness. more to come, maybe.

thank you!

2005-06-03T19:14:51Z

heather ran around with me to get my rent, return my ps2, get coffee and look at magazines. i'm totally into general grievous. i must have found six articles on him. teehee. we had tea in miss bell's room. it was go~oo~od. i feel...good. it was bad for a while there, but i'm relativly fine now. love!

jaykitsune @ 2005-05-27T22:14:00

2005-05-28T02:15:17Z

it actually looks like im permanently embarrassed

whatever.

2005-05-28T02:13:03Z

tons o fun today. we made fun of teachers and i went fishing. i got a cute little sunburn across my nose and cheeks.

jaykitsune @ 2005-05-23T21:50:00

2005-05-24T01:51:19Z

I feel better since that last post. it was therapeutic, really

jaykitsune @ 2005-05-23T20:40:00

2005-05-24T01:35:04Z

i need to update. i've had some rough shit going through my head since april 11th. to all those who actually read my journal, you'd know that that was the day cory decided to "rub" me out of sam's life. you know what? it worked too. bravo. i've kept silent for over a month now, but believe me, i've been torn apart on the inside. forgive if i sound like an addict, but sam really meant something important to me. i thought i meant something to her too, but it sure doesn't look that way. a little over five years. i was there for her through everything. her dad's death, her mom's drunken episodes, her shitty relationship with sean, (which i recently found out it was assumed i was trying to break them up, which wouldn't have been a bad idea, only i'm not one to try to mold other peoples lives.), her brother's rages, the unrestrained all night house parties. and even now, going through the bullshit to let lovers alone. i was verbally attacked and falsely accused and i still kept my mouth shut. about everything. like a leaf in a stream, i eventually washed ashore where i remain high and dry.
here comes a tantrum.
1.) i never wanted to break you and sam up cory.
2.) i never wanted to fuck you.
3.) have we already forgotten all the "thank you's" you both gave me thr first night you two got together?
4.) on that big happy post you left me? you and sam wern't going out yet. and can i remind you that you cheated on wren that friday?
5.) you think you're sam's big, strong protector. always there for her. would never let anything bad happen to her. always have her best interest at heart. well, you know what? i didn't see you at her dad's funeral. either day. remind me how long you were in love with her for, but you were too chicken shit to see her at her worse emotional state? i didn't see you, big, strong, fearless cory pull shawn off of her when she was getting pummeled.
sam may love you, but you're nothing but a hypocrite. how good of a person are you when you purposely turn her against, and isolate her from all her friends? you started small, suggesting betrayal from her casual friends. but you worked you're way up. was i all that was left? one more obstacle to overthrow before you could encase her, blind her to everything but you?
bev and heather have been my shoulders to support me. i feel like i owe them everything.
i don't care who reads this now. everything has already been ripped out of me, what's a little more pain?
even now, i still don't hate you cory. you've become the light in sam's life. i'm jealous. you've made her happier then i ever could. good luck to both of you.

jaykitsune @ 2005-04-20T05:33:00

2005-04-20T09:35:27Z

sweet. i just happened to be awake in bed for the season's first thunderstorm. it looks like thundershowers all day long. i love it. reminds me of old times...

jaykitsune @ 2005-04-14T19:46:00

2005-04-14T23:47:28Z

well, things look like they might get better. but keep in mind i'm being terrible optimistic here. time to check naruto.

jaykitsune @ 2005-04-11T15:02:00

2005-04-11T19:36:28Z

i feel like the lowest, unwanted, unloved and misunderstood shit on the planet. i'm distraught that cory doesn't trust me, and probably thinks i hate him to boot. he's not on my friends list so i dont think he can read this. i wish he could. he'd know that he, sam and i were suppost to talk today at lunch in some dark empty hallway. we'd discuss how hurt i was that he thought i'd be the one mad at him if he could go to the anime con. he'd know that is entirely not true, and that i've been the biggest supporter of him and sam, and he'd remember that i had played a minor part in them hooking up. i would have apologized, again, for being minorly upset the first two weeks of the relationship, only because i feared that it would drive a wedge between me and sam. i came to learn that this was not so, sam had obligations to cory and i understood that.
just two days ago, i thought everything was beginning to come together. me and sam had talked about how i felt and i thought we had reached a mutual understanding. we laughed and had so much fun. then she told me about cory's feelings and i cried. that day we made the plans to talk to him. sunday came and went, passing onto monday. i reminded sam about the plans first hour, and she assured me that it would happen. lunch rolled around. i stood behind sam, waiting for her to tell cory. but because cory's casa bus came, we would have to reschedule. but you didnt say anything to him sam! i was a little hurt and more confused then anything! i leaned over to bev and told her that cory had to go to casa so i didnt know when we would talk. then cory left and the whole table started to laugh about "certain peoples", god it was great. and now....now..
i was trying to bring the three of us closer, and i guess the whole thing blew up in my face.
i don't know where this leaves me...but now i'm lost.

♥

jaykitsune @ 2005-03-17T23:30:00

2005-03-18T04:29:07Z

i wonder why i post at all. no one ever replys. so sad.

jaykitsune @ 2005-03-17T23:23:00

2005-03-18T04:23:42Z

sam, please remember to bring the multi-color bracelet to school friday. b.t.w. you wanna hang out this weekend? ostera is sunday. plus it will be the last weekend before your big trip. ttyl

jaykitsune @ 2005-03-07T19:36:00

2005-03-08T01:56:16Z

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jaykitsune @ 2005-03-07T19:32:00

2005-03-08T00:32:43Z

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jaykitsune @ 2005-02-25T21:03:00

2005-02-26T02:03:22Z

whoa!!!! new naruto!!!

hot!!

oooOOOOooooh..

and the hot, new faces kankuro.

jaykitsune @ 2005-02-16T16:09:00

2005-02-16T21:10:24Z

I AM A JEDI!!!!!

jaykitsune @ 2005-02-03T20:48:00

2005-02-04T01:54:30Z

wow. i've just realise how fucking peachy my life is, with all my faults, compared to others. sam is usually stressed to the breaking point, has lost her father and her mom usually doesnt even care to pretend that she cares about her family, heathers family is going down the shitter, julie has gone through things i cant even comprehend. dont get me wrong, my life isnt milk, the worst of it is my mom goes to the bar more and i need a job. ..i understand nothing.

jaykitsune @ 2005-02-01T21:58:00

2005-02-02T02:59:17Z

...happy birthday stuart.

jaykitsune @ 2005-02-01T21:52:00

2005-02-02T02:53:02Z

it is official.
I AM A PLANT GEEK!